The 31 Diaries

Hi, this is such a new venture for me, but I feel so led to do this that I will follow the Holy Spirit and see where it leads. I was scrolling Facebook, and I saw a blog, and he said write a blog about your year so here I am doing just that. Not the best year of my life but one that has had so much growth in areas it is amazing to see God at work. 

The beginning of this year hit me hard I had great plans, The Lord had been talking to me about and I was excited to start but on the 3^rd of January 2025 all those plans went right out of the window. I become very unwell, as someone who pushes through and never gives up it was incredibly hard to not be able to leave my bed. After many trips to the doctors, at first words like we are thinking it is cancer were spoken into my life. So I embarked on some horrific tests at the end of all of these it all seemed to point to non-alcoholic fatty liver disease. In that whole sentence the worse word for me was “fatty”. How had that happened how had I got so big my liver was damaged with fat. I was booked in for hospital appointments and had lots of blood tests. During this time, I downloaded the NHS app, and it became my best friend I checked it on a regular basis to see my results and compare them with previous tests and just generally investing my time into sickness. I noticed that most of the results had insufficient results due to my BMI this was by far the very worst thing it totally crushed me. 

Proverbs 18v14 

The human spirit can endure a sick body, but who can bear a crushed spirit?

I looked to well-meaning people who love me to soothe me when I was upset about the BMI comments and fatty liver diagnosis and tell me I was perfect as I just as I was. During this time the Lord brought to my memory the path I was previously going on before becoming ill. You see in December 2024 the Lord really challenged my eating habits and I started to look at eating in a better way a way that I believe is Spirit led not world led taking everything up a level to live and eat from my spirit man, really thinking about how I treat my temple. God had a higher way of living set out for me would I have the courage to take the path or would I decide to stay in my comfort zone and learn to love me the way I am.